Nape saya mesti nanges???

Isn't this cute??? Such a wonderful gift...Subhanallah.....

Everywhere i go ...
I've bumped into pregnant ladies...
I've charmed with cutesy babies...

Wida ~ (newly wed) 5 weeks pregnant
Sis Diba ~ 4 months pregnant
Hajar ~ at least 3 months already ( noticed her baby bump this morning)
Ana~ 7++ months already
Shira ~ soon i guess
Diyana~ same as Shira
Zura ~ tak lama lagi
Sis Fahrin ~ (i didn't notice till last week) OMG!! she is almost 8 months!!!
Mazira...
Mieja....
Amrina...

the list goes on....................................................

baru kawen, dah pregnant...yang sedang menambah zuriat lagi pun ramai....Alhamdulillah, banyak nye berita gembira....but.....

pergi mana-mana pun, nampak jer preggy women, mesti nak jeling perut dia...mesti nak jugak terbayangkan perut saya mungkin dah sebesar tu sekarang...

Yesterday, out of blue, while I was walking to the parking lot of my office (alone), received a good news through an sms... one of my friend who get hitched last month is positively pregnant...she sounds so happy....I can even feel it just by reading her text..I felt happy for her too...

However, as i reached my car, suddenly felt so overwhelmed.... and i just burst into tears....

Kenapa saya mesti nanges??? Kenapa???? Kerana saya rasa sangat jeles...saya sepatutnya dah masuk 30 minggu jugak sekarang... perut saya patut dah sebesar Kak Fahrin punya perut...Jelesnya....... sangat-sangat cemburu.....:'((

Ya Allah..tolong lah hambamu ini...saya telah redha dengan pemergiannya...Maafkan hambamu ini yang masih lagi menangis...